One Step Back to Move Forward

I think I'm going to have to take a step back before I can move forward again. I'm putting too much pressure on myself right now, and that's counterproductive. Weighing myself daily stresses me out more than it helps.

Just today I experienced again how much I use food to regulate my stress. Right now my ADHD is giving me more trouble than it has in a while. The mental filter that's already pretty thin for me is even more permeable at the moment, and I'm constantly flooded by impressions, ideas, and everything else coming at me. Understandably, that stresses me out.

Until recently I still had nicotine, which helped me calm down and relax. I no longer have that — and I want to keep it that way. But in its place I'm currently using food as a release valve, more than before. Right now my weight is even creeping up slightly because of it.

For the time being, I'm only setting myself the goal of staying under 100 kg and stabilizing what I've achieved so far. I want to take the pressure off myself and work out better strategies at my own pace.